Lord, please don't punish me this way T_________T

I don't know why, but i hate physics so much~.. The only thing that i wish is to drop that subject~.. I feel stress when i enter physics lab~.. It feels like in hell~.. I want to end this stupid horrible year as fast as possible~.. I can't stand to be in that class, seriously~.. I don't feel like i belong there~.. Haiyaaaa, SPM!!~.. I really want to end this things~.. I'll be lucky enough if i can pass my physics~.. I don't aim for an A, i just want it to be credit~.. I feel like dying when i'm talking about my studies especially when i mention the word 'physics'~.. I hope i can pass my spm~.. I want to further my study like everyone wish to~.. Now, i'm trying to touch my physics book, i hope i can do it~.. I really have to~.. After my spm, i swear i will NEVER take any course that relate me to physics~.. I just want to be free~.. It's not that i hate my physics' teacher, i just dislike that subject~.. Its really killing me softly~.. Lord, help me to go through my final year~.. I want it to end up perfectly, not sadly~.. Nowadays, i spend most of my time alone~.. I don't know what is wrong with me~.. I don't reply texts from anyone, and i don't even act like i usually do~.. Well, something is wrong with me~.. I can't stay like this~.. I need to focus in my studies~.. You can do it Dei!!~.. Jia you!!~.. ;D