Tuesday, August 10, 2010

~.~''

No matter how strong are the values of a man or a woman they should never forget about feelings and happiness that are nowhere else to be found but in the heart of the beloved person. Men and women fight in relationships: fight for more independence, fight to prove their rightness and keep forgetting that love is not a fight but a “mutual support alliance”. William Carlos Williams in his story “The Buffalos” gives an outstanding example of a relationship between a man and a woman.
Francie in this story has a certain notion of what a relationship should be like. She seeks for being loved, understood, as any women does. But as far as it is possible to say – she has some kind of an inner conflict – she seeks love and at the same time she wants to show how independent and strong she is. She belongs to the type of women that will do anything to prove that they are not worse than man are and even better. Francie “had one defect-or habit, rather, which at first amused me. She was a great talker for woman's rights”[p 33]- says the storyteller. In her beloved one she saw love and an adversary at the same time. She got gentleness and love from him but afterwards she seemed to forget how precious it is and in this way she used the person she loved.
The man starts the story by telling: “Once I had a beautiful friend whom I loved and who loved me. It was not easy for us to see each other…”[p 33]. This summation seems to reflect the whole story. The man loves, but in his relationship with Francie he seeks for pleasures. This is even supported by the fact that “it was sometimes months together before we could meet at all”. It seems to more of a “childish game” for him. The Buffalo story he tells her is some kind of reflection of his personal belief. Buffalos – are free animals, they do whatever they want. He tells it to outline the possibility for men and women live separately and freely like buffalos.
People should fight for their feeling if they want their relationship to work out. Love is not about being or not being dependent on each other. People should FEEL and think lesser than they do, stop constantly analyzing their relationship and just be happy, enjoying their moments together. This is the only way to really feel free. And at the end people are not buffalos, they are not animals- they are human being with hearts and souls. And the only thing really important thing to fight for is LOVE.

Friday, July 2, 2010

Tapi Bukan Aku

KerisPatih – Tapi Bukan Aku

jangan lagi kau sesali keputusanku

ku tak ingin kau semakin kan terluka
tak ingin ku paksakan cinta ini
meski tiada sanggup untuk kau terima

aku memang manusia paling berdosa

khianati rasa demi keinginan semu
lebih baik jangan mencintaiku aku dan semua hatiku
karena takkan pernah kau temui, cinta sejati

reff:

berakhirlah sudah semua kisah ini
dan jangan kau tangisi lagi
sekalipun aku takkan pernah mencoba kembali padamu
sejuta kata maaf terasa kan percuma
sebab rasa ku tlah mati untuk menyadarinya

semoga saja kan kau dapati

hati yg tulus mencintaimu
tapi bukan aku

repeat reff

Saturday, June 5, 2010

heyy , hmm. actually kn , i feel jealous with the other class. they were always happy unlike my class. they were like one big family. but in my class , there are some unsporting student. & i was afraid to talk when im in class. i feel like im not belong to there. not only that , i was also afraid with my teacher. she seems like .... like .... hmm. i can feel that someone was unhappy with me. but why should i care ? just be patient lha. hope i can stand in that class until i finish my study. erggh ! sometimes i feel like wanna scream but no one can hear me. huh how i wish somebody can hear my voice. feels like wanna move to the other class oh. i really miss that smile when i am at form 3 last year. huhuhu ~~ T.T

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

nice ;)

Daphne Douglas Count the garden by the flowers, never by the leaves that fall. Count your life with smiles and not the tears that roll :)

Yesterday at 8:06pm · · · See Wall-to-Wall
Andy Esparam Goritom
Andy Esparam Goritom
i raise my right hand up high.,
saying good bye with a heavy fake smile.,
my job here ihas done because,
i lost my smile since that moment.,
other angel will replace me to
make people smile as i always tried.
God.. take me away ~
Yesterday at 8:10pm
Daphne Douglas
Daphne Douglas
Forget the times she walked by,forget the times she made you cry,
Forget the times she spoke your name, remember now your not the same.
Forget the times she held your hand, forget the sweet things if you can,
Forget the times & Don't pretend, remember now she's just a memory and nothing else.
Yesterday at 8:12pm
Andy Esparam Goritom
Andy Esparam Goritom
i try and try again..
but my heart so stupid
there's nothing i cant do..
she act like nothing happen,
but im not like that kind of person..
she can smile and laugh at the same time
and even eat everthing she saw
until her tummy became like a pillow.,
but did i?
i cant forget the memory we shared
cause my mind still surrounded by her..
Yesterday at 8:23pm
Daphne Douglas
Daphne Douglas
Don't ever give up, if you still want to try,
Don't ever wipe your tears, if you still want to cry.
Don't ever settle for an answer, if you still want to know.
Don't ever say you don't love her, if you can't let her go..
Yesterday at 8:30pm
Carl Spencer
Carl Spencer
As time passes by, you will get your "good-bye".. X)
Yesterday at 8:33pm
Andy Esparam Goritom
Andy Esparam Goritom
.
i dream of her because too much thinking about her..
such a wonderful dream which make me smile.,
*dang* im awake and it was just a dream..
another moody breathless morning day..
i tried to go to sleep so that i can have that
wonderful moment again but,
its too late at that moment on.
so i online facebook and go to her profilez
just wanna to see her smile?
but the more sorrow i can be..
from moment to moment ..
i barely can breath..
my heart was like being poke again and again..
Yesterday at 8:43pm
Daphne Douglas
Daphne Douglas
If you could choose between life and death
you would almost rather die,
love is fun but hurts so much
the price you pay is high.
Sometimes our visions seem clearer
after our eyes are washed out with tears
Have a good cry,
wash out your heart
If you keep it inside
it'll tear you apart.
Sometimes you lose,
but you're going to win
if you just hang in...
Yesterday at 8:46pm
Andy Esparam Goritom
Andy Esparam Goritom
.
i blame on my stupid heart,
because that stupid heart's love and care,
make me blind in many way..
but how can she be that stupid at the same time?
i wisper to my Father on heaven,
to gently knock her head and make her,
realise, to be thankful and graceful person..
" appreciate the person who willingly accept,
all of our badness and goodness inside us "
yeah, i know,
im not that good looking,
but the quality of mine is better than other
boys out there.
Yesterday at 8:58pm
Daphne Douglas
Daphne Douglas
Men are like apples on trees, the best ones are
on the top of the tree. The women don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling
and don't want to get hurt.
Instead, they just get the rotten apples
from the ground that aren't so good but easy.
So, the apples at the top
think something is wrong with them,
when in reality they are amazing.
They just have to wait
for the right woman to come along,
the one who's brave enough
to climb all the way to the top
because they value quality, and not just looks.
Yesterday at 9:05pm
Andy Esparam Goritom
Andy Esparam Goritom
.
Love hurts when you breakup with someone,
Hurts even more when someone breaks up with u
But love hurts the most
when the person u love
has no idea how u feel.
i heard someone wisper her name, but when i turned around
to see who it was, i notice that i was alone,
then i realise it was my heart telling me that i miss her.

What to do when it feels
What to do when it does not heals
Every sweet moment of life it steals
But heart has only love where it deals.
Yesterday at 9:15pm
Daphne Douglas
Daphne Douglas
When something's over, it's over.
it can never start again.
When it's broken you can never
put back the pieces.
Life is not the way
you want it to be.
When you know that someone's
hurting you so much, just stop.
We know that it hurts a lot,
but you must learn to let go of things.
Don't push yourself too hard.
Coz we all know,
that in every ending,
there's such a thing
that we call the beginning..

But this you must remember..since I'm crying for you to see..
Love comes..
to those who still hope,
even though they've been disappointed,
to those who still believe..
even though they've been betrayed,
to those who still love,
even though they've been hurt before...
Yesterday at 9:21pm
Andy Esparam Goritom
Andy Esparam Goritom
.
Touching lines from a broken heart,
In my dreams she is mine.
But in my life she is a dream. :(

i wish she could remember how incredible
i am as her lover. because im better
than her exes.

I get so emotional when she are not around,
I think the emotion is called happiness.

but i've lost that emotion from
that moment she ended
of what me and her started it together.
♥ love ♥
Yesterday at 9:35pm
Daphne Douglas
Daphne Douglas
What we desire, is what we cannot have,
What we have, is what we do not desire,
I'm saying this so you will see, Andreas,
That not all relationships have their happy endings..

If I can save a thousand hearts from breaking,
Maybe you'll never experience the pain,
But I'm so sorry, for what you had and what you lost,
But even more sorry, for words is what I could only convey,
What I try my hardest to comfort you, I know it will only pass as water rolling off a leaf in the rain..

But I plead for you to see,
That what has ended can start again,
Maybe not with the same person,
But with another who would really care..

Because Andreas.. (okay, that sounded weird --")
The one who broke you,
Is the only one who can fix you..

(PS. I got to go offline now. T.T)
Yesterday at 9:48pm
Andy Esparam Goritom
Andy Esparam Goritom
.
i'll try my best to heal myself,
like i always does when she hurt me much..
but this time.,
its wasnt that easy like usually,
cause i still love her so much.
damn my stupid heart,
which she didnt appreciate it.

andy is dead just for awhile..mabye

the statement of..

"The one who broke you,
Is the only one who can fix you"

feedback = claudia♥

eh? ok2.. :)
Yesterday at 10:05pm
Daphne Douglas
Daphne Douglas
It's the heart afraid of breaking,
that never learns to dance..
It is the dream afraid of waking,
that never takes the chance..
It is the one who won't be taken,
who cannot seem to give..
And the soul afraid of dying,
that never learns to live.

Not all scars show,
Not all wounds heal,
Not all the words I say,
Can make you see,
Because she's not worth the tears,
She's not worth the heartache,
She's not worth your time, your love, your attention,
If all she does is walk away without sympathy for,
all the pain that she caused you..

(PS. aha. ran out of rhyme --")
13 hours ago
Selene George Kichi
Selene George Kichi
sapa manang??..hua3..XD
13 hours ago
Daphne Douglas
Daphne Douglas
ahah..dunno..i ran out of rhyme.. --"
13 hours ago
Andy Esparam Goritom
Andy Esparam Goritom
.
►soon..
she'll realise how much important i am to her.
►soon..
she'll gonna cry in regretness of how
selfish decision she've made.
►soon..
im just gonna smile while looking
at her regretful face.
►soon..
she gonna miss me when im gone..
►soon..
everything about me will overshadow her
that make her cant stop think each of our sweet
memories.
►soon..
she'll feel lonely because of "something" is missing,
and that "something" is " me ".

or.. maybe not ? (,")

i'll appreciate all those people with their effort
to make me feel better with their advices even
some of them are unmatured enough and unexperienced.

when girls said some boys is jerks,
then some girls are dumb -.-

now.. the matter is..
just dont make things became too late,
cause only deep pain and regretness
a person can get.
13 hours ago

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Love Is ~~~~~~

Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Animal Have Feelings Too

I don’t remember much from the place I was born. It was cramped and dark, and we were never played with by the humans. I remember Mom and her soft fur, but she was often sick, and very thin. She had hardly any milk for me and my brothers and sisters. I remember many of them dying, and I missed them so much.

I don’t remember the day I was taken from Mom. I was so sad and scared, my milk teeth had only just come in, and I really should have been with Mom still, but she was so sick and the Humans kept saying that they wanted money and were tired of the "mess" that me and my sister made.

So we were crated up and taken to a strange place. Just the two of us. We huddled together and were scared, still no humans hands came to pet us or to love us. So many sights and sounds, and smells! We are in a store where there are many different animals! Some that squawk! Some that meow! Some that peep! My sister and I are jammed into a small cage. I can hear other puppies here. I see humans look at me. I like the little humans – the kids – best. They look so sweet, and fun, like they would play with me!

EUTHANASIA is a procedure performed by a vet in which the animal is painlessly killed by a lethal injection. For our pets that are in pain or terminally ill or just old, this can be the last humane thing we can do for them

All day we stay in a small cage, sometimes mean people will hit the glass to frighten us, every once in a while we are taken out to be held or shown to humans. Some are gentle, some hurt us. We always hear "Aw, they’re so cute! I want one!" But we never get to go with any one. My sister died last night, when the store was dark. I lay my head on her soft fur and felt the life leave her small thin body. I had heard them say she was sick, and that I should be sold at a "discount price" so I would quickly leave the store. I think my soft whine was the only one that mourned for her, as her body was taken out of the cage in the morning and dumped.

Today, a family came and bought me. Oh, happy day! They are a nice family, they really, really wanted me! They bought a dish and food and the little girl held me so tenderly in her arms. I love her so much! The mom and dad say what a sweet and good puppy I am. I’m named Angel. I love to lick my new humans. The family takes such good care of me, they are loving and tender and sweet. They gently teach me right and wrong, give me lots of good food, and lots of love. I want only to please these wonderful people! I love the little girl and I enjoy running and playing with her.

Today, I went to the veterinarian, it was a strange place and I was frightened. I got some shots, but my best friend the little girl held me softly and said it would be OK. So, I relaxed. The vet must have said sad words to my beloved family, because they looked awfully sad. I heard "severe hip dysplasia", and something about my heart……I heard the vet say something about backyard breeders and my parents not being tested. I know not what any of that means, just that it hurts me to see my family so sad, but they still love me, and I still love them very much.

I am 6 months old now. Where most other puppies are robust and rowdy, it hurts me terribly to move. The pain never lets up. It hurts to run and play with my beloved little girl, and I find it hard to breathe. I keep trying my best to be the strong pup I know I am supposed to be, but it is so hard. It breaks my heart to see the little girl so sad, and to hear the Mom and Dad talk about "Now might be the time". Several times I have gone to that vet’s place, and the news is never good. Always talk about congenital problems. I just want to feel the warm sunshine and run, and play, and nuzzle my family. Last night was the worst, the pain had been constant. Now it even hurts to get up and have a drink. I try to get up but can only whine in pain.

I am taken in the car one last time. Everyone is so sad, and I don’t know why. Have I been bad? I try to be a good and loving dog – what have I done wrong? Oh, if only this pain would go! If only I could soothe the tears of my little girl. I reach out my muzzle to lick her hand, but I can only whine in pain. The vet’s table is so cold. I am so frightened. The humans all hug and love me, and they cry into my soft fur. I can feel their love and sadness. I manage to softly lick their hands. Even the vet isn't so scary today. He is gentle and I sense some kind of relief for my pain.

The little girl holds me gently and I thank her for giving me all her love. I feel a pinch in my foreleg. The pain is beginning to lift, and a peace descends upon me. I can now softly lick her hand. My vision is becoming dreamlike now, and I can see my mother and my brothers and sisters in a far off green place. They tell me there is no pain there, only peace and happiness. I tell the family goodbye in the only way I know how – a soft wag of my tail and a nuzzle from my nose. I had hoped to spend many many moons with them but it just wasn’t meant to be.

"You see" said the vet, "pet shop puppies do not come from ethical breeders!" The pain ends now, and I know it will be many years before I see my beloved family again. If only things could have been different.

Bestfriend ((:

A man and his dog were walking along a road. The man was enjoying the scenery, when it suddenly occurred to him that he was dead. He remembered dying, and that his faithful dog had been dead for many years. He wondered where the road was leading them. After a while, they came to a high, white stone wall along one side of the road. It looked like fine marble. As he reached the wall, he saw a magnificent gate in the arch, and the street that led to the gate made from pure gold. He and the dog walked toward the gate, and as he got closer, he saw a man at a desk to one side.

When he was close enough, he called out, "Excuse me, where are we?"

"This is heaven, sir," the man answered.

"Wow! Would you happen to have some water? We have traveled far," the man said.

"Of course, sir. Come right in, and I'll have some ice water brought right up."

The man gestured, and the gate began to open.

"Can my friend," gesturing toward his dog, "come in, too?" the traveler asked.

"I'm sorry, sir, but we don't accept pets."

The man thought a moment, remembering all the years this dog remained loyal to him and then turned back toward the road and continued the way he had been going. After another long walk he came to a plain dirt road, which led through a farm gate that looked as if it had never been closed. There was no fence. As he approached the gate, he saw a man inside, leaning against a tree and reading a book.

"Excuse me!" he called to the reader. "Do you have any water? We have traveled far."

"Yes, sure, there's a faucet over there." The man pointed to a place that couldn't be seen from outside the gate. "Come on in and help yourself."

"How about my friend here?" the traveler gestured to his dog.

"There should be a bowl by the faucet; he is welcome to share."

They went through the gate, and sure enough, there was an old-fashioned faucet with a bowl beside it. The traveler filled the bowl and took a long drink himself, then he gave some to the dog. When they were full, he and the dog walked back toward the man who was standing by the tree waiting for them.

"What do you call this place?" the traveler asked.

"This is heaven," was the answer.

"Well, that's confusing," the traveler said. "The man down the road said that was heaven, too."

"Oh, you mean the place with the gold street and pearly gates? Nope. That's hell."

"Doesn't it make you mad for them to use your name like that?"

"No. We're just happy that they screen out the folks who'd leave their best friends behind in exchange for material things."

If Only ~

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the guy next to me. He
was my so called "best friend". I stared at his dark, messy hair, and wished he was mine. But he didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, he walked up to me and asked me for the notes he had missed the day before and i handed them to him. He said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was him. He was in tears, mumbling on and on about how his homies had left him. He asked me to come over because he didn't feel like being alone, so I did. As I sat next to him on the sofa, I stared at his beautiful, brown eyes, wishing he was mine. After 2 hours, one basketball movie, and three bags of chips, he decided to go to sleep. He
looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year

The day before prom he walked to my locker. "My date is sick" he said; she's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, we were standing at my front door step! I stared at him as he smiled at me and stared at me with his crystal eyes. I want him to be mine, but he isn't thinking of me like that, and I know it. Then he said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as his perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get his diploma. I wanted him to be mine, but he didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone
went home, he came to me in his smock and hat, and I cried as I hugged him. Then he lifted my head from his shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That guy is getting married now. I watched him say "I do" and drive off to his new life, married to another woman. I wanted him to be mine, but he didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before he drove away, he came to me and said "you came!". He said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a guy who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a letter that he had wrote during his high school years. This is what it read:
I stare at her wishing she was mine, but she doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish she would tell me she loved me!
I wish I did too... I thought to my self, and I cried.

Love Is Now Or Never

A boy walked into a CD store and saw a girl behind the counter.

She smiled and he thought it was the most beautiful smile he has ever seen before and wanted to kiss her right there.

He said "Uh... Yeah... Umm... I would like to buy a CD." He picked one out and gave her money for it.

"Would you like me to wrap it for you?" she asked, smiling her cute smile again.

He nodded and she went to the back.

She came back with the wrapped CD and gave it to him. He took it and walked out of the store. He went home and from then on, he went to that store everyday and bought a CD, and she wrapped it for him. He took the CD home and put it in his closet. He was still too shy to ask her out and he really wanted to but he couldn't. His mother found out about this and told him to just ask her.

So the next day, he took all his courage and went to the store. He bought a CD like he did everyday and once again she went to the back of the store and came back with it wrapped. He took it and when she wasn't looking, he left his phone number on the desk and ran out...

!!!RRRRRING!!!

The mother picked up the phone and said, "Hello?"

It was the girl!!! She asked for the boy and the mother started to cry and said, "You don't know? He passed away yesterday...

" The line was quiet except for the cries of the boy's mother. Later in the day. The mother went into the boy's room because she wanted to remember him. She thought she would start by looking at his clothes. So she opened the closet. She was face to face with piles and piles and piles of unopened CDs. She was surprised to find all those CDs and she picked one up and sat down on the bed and she started to open one.

Inside, there was a CD and as she took it out of the wrapper, out fell a piece of paper. The mother picked it up and started to read it.

It said: Hi... I think you are really cute. Do you wanna go out with me? Love, Jacelyn

The mother opened another CD...


Again there was a piece of paper. It said: Hi... I think you are really cute. Do you wanna go out with me? Love, Jacelyn

Without your love, I would die

One night a guy and girl were driving home from the movies. The boy sensed there was something wrong because of the painful silence they shared between them that night. The girl then asked the boy to pull over because she wanted to talk. She told him that her feelings had changed and that it was time to move on.
A silent tear slid down his cheek as he slowly reached into his pocket and passed her a folded note. At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding down that very same street. He swerved right into the drivers seat, killing the boy.
Miraculously, the girl survived. Remembering the note, she pulled it out and read it.
" Without your love, I would die."

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